Sunday, January 22, 2012

Life on hold

Have you ever called a company and they put you on hold?

You listen to that elevator music and just wait.

It's been five minutes, should you hang up and call back?

No, you'll lose your place in line if you hang up. You'll have to wait another five + minutes and start everything all over again.

More elevator music.

Oh goodie, it's a voice! Oh. It's just a recording telling you that all the operators are currently busy and the next available agent will be with you shortly.

How much longer is shortly?


I feel like my whole life is on hold right now. When is the answer coming? Everything and everyone else is passing me by while I just sit here.

And wait.

Three more months and I'll be holding our little man in my arms. Where will he be born? Where will we live? I don't know the answers. Is this how Mary felt wondering where her son, Father's Son, would be delivered? Was she scared? Anxious? Did she feel abandoned by her Creator in her most weakest moments? From what I've read about her in Scriptures, I take it she was a very trusting and obedient servant who did not doubt her Heavenly Father. I want to be like that. I want to trust 100%... and not just in words. For real. I want to trust for real. Help me Father. Help me trust You.

1 comment:

  1. Thanks for sharing Casey...I feel the same way at times too...It's good to know I'm not alone and that these are valid feelings/thoughts and emotions.