Do you journal?
I don't know about you, but this girl has way too many thoughts racing around inside her head all day. I mean, isn't it a basic truth that girls have more words they need to share daily then guys? I heard that statistic somewhere. It sounds ligit anyways :)
When we go through seasons of hardship, or change, or whatever, there are so many thoughts in our minds that we may not even realize lay dormant and uncared for.
As moms, we sacrifice a lot. I mean, a lot (can I get a wit-ness out there???) Gone are the days of sleeping in, reading books cozily by the window without a carefree thought in the world, going out on coffee dates with whomever whenever, random unplanned trips to the mall or grocery store. If you are a young mom like me, you spend most your days talking with little ones. By the end of the day you are dying for some adult conversation! I'm just being honest here everyone. I love my daughter endlessly, and actually the older she gets, the more I talk to her openly and descriptively. But my point is, we as women have a lot of things we need to talk about. Sometimes we aren't even looking for advice or a pat on the back, we just want to say it! It feels so good to get it off your chest.
Sometimes are minds are so jumbled from the day and we are so busy that we continue burying thoughts deeper and deeper inside our hearts. I think for the sake of the greater good (or so we think) we push aside our feelings just so we can get by and survive the day.
In my humble opinion, that's why journaling is so important. When I hop into bed, snuggle under the covers, and pull out my bible and notebook, suddenly thoughts and prayers begin pouring out of my heart that I never even knew were there. It's like I am processing the day with Father, in written form.
I don't feel like my thoughts are complete unless I've written them down. I could go on a million coffee dates with all my loves (um, that sounds amazing!) and talk all about my life, and I still wouldn't feel satisfied until it I wrote it. Maybe it's my learning style, who knows.
Anyhow, what I'm trying to say here is than penning my thoughts is like setting a dove free. I feel so much lighter after writing my heart cries down on paper. It may start out like a diary entry, but it always ends up a prayer. I feel like my journal entries are a lot like the Psalms. I may start scribbling my deepest fears and hurts, but slowly I start remembering my blessings, my victories, and then I end up praising and thanking Father for His unfailing goodness. And for as long as I can remember, I've always signed my journal entries, "I love you Father! *Casey*".
I've been journaling since I was five. Nonstop. My first diary had Ariel the Mermaid on the front and came with a precious lock (so my brother couldn't read it of course!) I have diaries and journals from my entire life packed away in storage in my in-law's attic. I look back at what I wrote (and drew!) as a fragile naive five year old, and I am amazed. As I've gone through my journals in times past and re-read entries, I relive over and over the amazing adventures Father has brought me on. He is writing my story even as we speak, and I am merely recording it.
So go ahead, buy the cutest, most eye-catching journal you can find at Barnes and Nobles or wherever. What journal looks like "you"? What journal design describes your personality? Don't let the price detour you. If you absolutely LOVE it, you will WANT to journal in it, I can almost guarantee you that.
Besides, maybe someday you'll be famous and your journal will sell for millions! (Hey, anything could happen...)
So what are you waiting for? Go write :)