Tuesday, July 27, 2010
I can't believe the time has flown by so quickly.
I'm saying goodbye to my family. I'm saying goodbye to my best friends. I'm saying goodbye to rolling green hills, clean air, smiley strangers, and Wal-Mart.
But its also a time for hellos! I am going to see my love in 3 days and my heart is pounding with excitement. It definitely has been hard without him these past 3 weeks. But on the other hand, it has been so amazing to stay longer with the ones I love.
My family and I had so much fun and I am so grateful for the quality time we spent together. We took Sitora to so many places... it was amazing! Parks, zoos, activity centers, restaurants, and IHOP in Kansas City where we all spent some much needed time with Father. I wish I could scoop up everyone and everything I love here and take them with me wherever I go in life forever.
The longer I've been back in America the more I remember that I'm different. I'm not really American in some respects, and I am definitely not Azeri. I am a third culture person. I am my own breed. All those out there who fall under this same category, you know who you are! :)
I don't really completely fit into either culture. I'm forever changed.
I know one thing is true though... my true citizenship is not of this world and I will never feel completely at home until I am home with my Father. I have not been called to live a life of comfort. I have not been called to serve myself and live selfishly. I have not been called to store up treasures on earth. I have been called to lose my life for His sake, to love Him, to sacrifice, to serve, and to store up treasures in my eternal home.
So, goodbye, hello, and everything in between.