Tuesday, May 11, 2010
A long time coming...
So, after years of downright stubborn refusal... I've started a blog.
Because I NEED to get my thoughts out. I journal with a real pen and paper regularly, but there's something healing and relieving about posting thoughts for the public eye. It's as if I sat down at a cute little café and drank coffee with you and told you everything I'm writing down at this very moment. Oh how I love fellowship, encouragement, seeing the smile of a friend - albeit even if its a cyber-smile :)
I guess what's on my mind most lately is loneliness. This business of living overseas can be very isolating to say the least. Don't get me wrong... I love my life here. Wouldn't change a thing. But, the friend factor is seriously lacking.
I've lived in many states and countries in my life, and each time I move I grieve leaving a deep and wonderful friendship behind. Even though I keep in contact with these dear friends, it can never be the same if you no longer live in the same city. It's hard when you can't actually share life with your friends.
I look back on all the friendships I've acquired over time and rejoice wholeheartedly for the way each and every friend has helped encourage and shape me. I wish I could keep every single one of them with me and take them everywhere I go. In one sense I do, in my heart, but I want them all with me for real.
I guess if anything, its teaching me to yearn for HIM.
If I had everything and everyone I wanted in life, then I would have no need for Him in my life. It teaches me to reach for Him, to fill those empty spots and hurts that people aren't able to fill.
I can't wait to spend eternity with Him, and all my besties in the world! For then we shall never be apart.
I dedicate this post to all my friends all over the globe. You have loved me at my best and my worst. You've cried with me, laughed with me, admonished me, comforted me, and accompanied me on this journey we call life.
To all my loves.